Does my husband love me or not? please decode...?

Sounds like you are one good compliment from jumping the bones of any other guy hun. As you should be..that relationship is ultimately going to drag you down to where he is, and you don't want that, it sucks to see someones spirit killed..my ex tried to kill mine, 10 years worth of it, I finally had enough and got out..you need to do the same..but only aftyer talking to him about this and see if he is open to at least try and change. if you see no change, then its off to the attorney to make your life better.